I’ve been up for an hour. I woke at 4:30 this morning, got out of bed, made a pot of coffee, did normal morning things. I see the sun rising during this last hour.
And part of me can’t help but think “you know you could have spent the last hour asleep”. I could have, indeed, but I like the quiet of the early morning. When I get up this early on a weekend, it’s a great feeling. Lots of the day to do whatever I want.
A new bookshelf
I got a new bookshelf last night. Well, new to me. I bought it from the reporter at work who’s going to be leaving the paper. It now holds all of my graphic novels. I usually end up acquiring pieces of furniture in this way. I got my coffee table, end tables and a TV stand (which is still devoid of a TV) in the same manner over ten years ago.
The acquiring of stuff
The bookshelf got me thinking last night that as you grow older, what you acquire and how excited you get changes. I remember being very excited about a vacuum I bought in the mid 2000s. Last Christmas I received a casserole dish, a new frying pan, and a microwave. It was very exciting.
When I was younger, getting a new dual cassette AM FM player was the big thing. I even remember getting my Commodore 64 in high school.
Breaking up is hard to do
Break ups stuck. I haven’t had one in years, but I remember the feeling. They’re horrid, they’re awful and they leave you with a deep sinking feeling in the pit of your stomach.
But, there comes a time that one has to start to realize that the only person who mattered in the relationship that ended, is you. Build yourself up, focus on you. It’ll still be difficult, considering the fact that the comforting aspect of someone around is now gone.
Don’t analyze things. Don’t blame yourself. Don’t see yourself as the problem. The only one important in any break up is you.